I wanted to let you all know, those that are still reading this anyway, that we have COMPLETELY fallen off the wagon. We waffled a bit over the past few months, sorta stayed on course, but when July hit it was over. No more budgeting, no more saving, it was a slow incline to spend, spend, spend….spent to the point of adding an additional two grand to the debt tally. Not only that, but I quit the 2nd job not long after my last post. When it came down to it I really wasn’t making any money over what I could make elsewhere in a retail store. It averaged about $9/hour. Not worth it considering the wear and tear of my vehicle. Right now I am desperately seeking a 2nd job that could benefit my home life and bring in some money. With the holidays coming I have been applying to UPS since they work Monday – Friday 4am – 8am. This would be perfect since the facility is half a mile from my day job and would allow me to keep the weekends open for family time or a third job.

I really feel like all I am doing is dragging my feet on the 2nd job. I want out of this situation, a little bit of air to breathe, but I feel so beaten down by weight of it that I am depressed. It’s paycheck to paycheck these days and I can’t take it.

There I said my peace and I can feel the fire again start to burn for the plasectomy. I really should cut those cards up, but what if I need them to balance transfer from one card to another? Eek!